It has taken me a while to learn this but when I take care of myself I am happier to take care of others.

Once again, I am not getting to my blog until late, but that is because I was able to partake in some self care today. Not much but oh what a long shower can do for the soul.

My son has been on fire today. Now that he is four months I am starting to put him on a sleeping schedule and in his crib. My son was six weeks early so we spent the first month of life in the NICU and hooked up to machines, so when he came home in December I started to co sleep with him.  I was worried but also I felt I missed that first month of cuddles with him. Now that we know he is doing great, we have decided to wean him by six months, so I have started the task of breaking our habits. It’s weird I already miss him.

With that said, today was very difficult day one. He can feel we are changing him routine so he is extra aware and crabby. Instead of holding him nap or putting him in his Ergo Baby, I feed him, rocked him and put him in his crib. I am actually proud because today he did two 30 minute naps in his crib, but as you know that is not enough for a new baby.

By 4:30 pm I was over it and handed my screaming baby to my husband, who tried to calm him down while I took a 30 minute shower. Yes, I have a new baby and I cranked the music, put on a mask, plucked my eye brows, brushed and flossed my teeth and took an extra long shower, where I was even able to deep condition my hair. I put lotion on, brushed and dried my hair, sat on the toilet just to meditate for a minute, breath and remember how much I love my family.

I opened the bathroom door and was greeted with a screaming child. I threw my dirty clothes in the hamper, thanked my husband and took our son from him. With a huge smile on my face I kissed him and started walking and bouncing him to calm him down. He eventually settled. Right now, four hours later he is back with his dad, fighting to go to sleep.

I learned this lesson a couple of years back. Before my husband, kid and dog I worked as an admin. I feel admin is one of the hardest positions because you are everything and paid little. I don’t know, I love it and I am good at admin. I can multi task, remember everything and I majority of the time have a smile on my face.

How did I do it when I had deadlines, people screaming at me and a to do list a mile long. I walked away counted to ten and went outside and smoked a huge joint. Joking. But there were many times, I left went shopping, called my BFF, walked, worked out or took myself out to lunch. I got away, took care of my self, my needs and then returned with the expectation it was going to be a shit show for the rest of the day. I embraced my work because there are many people out there that A. do not have a job, B. are bored at work or C. are not appreciated. I have and love my job, I am never bored and everyone loves and appreciates my hard work.

And all it took was to stop and remember to breath and take care of myself first. With that I have created Spa or Self Saturday. We have to remember to have mommy time weekly. Even if it is just a 30 minute shower.

Thank You to my husband for taking the little guy off my hands for a bit. I appreciate the long hot shower and mommy time.